…stressing. So I have to find a new wedding photographer. Initially we were going to use Andy’s former co-worker. He said he would give us a “deal.” I didn’t know what said “deal” would be, or what it would include. But since the upcoming nuptials are a tad over two months away, I had Andy get some more details from his friend. Without going into specifics, the “deal” is more expensive than any other photographer I’ve been forced to reach out to. So needless to say, we don’t have that kind of budget. Thankfully Andy already spoke with him, and they are fine with us using a different photographer. Thank Goodness, I don’t want to create any awkwardness.
I’ve been scrambling the last 5 days to find a new photographer. I managed to find some that are available that day. But I would prefer to use the photographer my friend had for her wedding. Thus far, she has the most reasonable prices for what we’re looking for. I am waiting to get more package option info back, after talking with her. I won’t be able to relax until we have a contract signed with a photographer. I am on pins and needles waiting to hear back, but I don’t want to be a stalker. hahaha! I also don’t want to harass people either. So until then, I’m trying to play it cool. Which is impossible for the anxious mind. Also, I’m not cool. So trying to act cool is rather comical. So if you need me, I’ll be hyperventilating in a corner somewhere.
I am bit of a cranky pants today. I feel like a small child that didn’t get enough sleep but forced to go to kindergarten. I have no reason to be cranky, aside from the fact it is Monday, and I couldn’t go for a walk during lunch. I enjoy my lunchtime walks, but it’s actually raining today, so I couldn’t go. Yup, I’m secretly an old person. Anyway, we do need the rain quite badly. We’ve been in a drought situation in my area, so I guess I shouldn’t complain. But I will blame it on the rain anyway.
I also got an Audible book a while back, and it’s been a real struggle to get through it. So I’m making myself listen to it as much as possible. But I still have about 40% left. UGH! After that, I also made another poor Audible decision. So looks like I have another potentially sucky book to get through.
I decided maybe a Twix bar would cheer me up. Normally I get all my snacks from the gas station down the street. But with the rain, I can’t walk there. I also don’t want to give up my parking spot and drive there. OH CONUNDRUM! So I concluded I will be forced to pay the astronomical prices of the vending machine. I put my money in, got my Twix, and the machine accidentally gave me too much change. Also, my afternoon meeting got moved. Now things are looking up!
13 Going On 30 is one of my favorite movies!
Today is my 30th birthday. YIKES! I’m never one to freak out or lie about my age, then again didn’t feel hiding the fact I was in my 20’s. Do people seriously do that?! Anyway, 30 kinda freaks me out a little. I think it’s because it’s a whole new decade and there are invisible expectations that must be lived up too. I was never one to follow expectations for age, always more of a “in due time” this that or the other thing will happen. Part of me is really nostalgic for the old times. Like having sleep overs in middle school, graduating high school, and being in college.Now all of a sudden I feel like I need to buy a house, get married, and start popping out kids. UH…NO!
That’s a really tall order to fill for a 30-year-old, and all these things are certainly not going to happen overnight. I think I need to let go of these invisible threads. Everyone is different and things happen at varying speeds. I need to treat 30 like version “29.2”. I also need to shake all the preconceived notions I had about turning 30. People change, times change, and your mind changes. To that I say, cheers to growing at your own speed and to hell with age-expectations!